Disgusting and horrible week 5.
Too demoralized. Felt very stupid.
Just. Wanted. To. Give. Up.
I have 3 weeks to pick myself up.
Clinicals
For the record, I've never felt so happy to be at work. 3B@NUH is definitely THE BEST. I always (ok la..3-4 out of the 5days) look forward to work-lunch-knock off. I even enjoy staying back after work to copy case notes with Siok Kee even if we finish at 7. What makes it enjoyable? I must say it's their approach/priority to teach students and ensuring that we students really learn something at the end. They even care for our welfare...which is very comforting to me. Stressed at work? Of course but I am managing it quite well if I say so myself. I'm really putting in a lot of effort for this particular placement and I hope I am able to achieve what I've set out to achieve and reaffirm my interest for hand therapy is no fluke.
Knee
Finally after 3 weeks, I went for my session. Very surprised but happy at the same time to see my PT there because I was expecting someone else. Poured out all my issues to him from the giving way sensations to my abnormal gait. Funny though...when I told him everything, I hate using terminology and will resort to using layman terms. I can't help but feel slightly dumb sometimes and I think I can be very inconsistent when telling my PT about my problems hmmm.
It was good to be back and I finally got to know the name of the really nice TA! But exciting moment next! After I was done with half of my programme, I had to wait for my PT to give me more exercises so I went to sit down at the plinth to wait. The the other PT (LOL!) came and asked whether I needed help but I politely declined la. In the end he still helped cos he approached my PT who then discussed with the other PT about my case and what exercise I have to do next. He's really nice though and I got really nervous around him for I-dunno-what reason. It ended with a highly self-conscious and embarrassing moment when both PTs sat down to scrutinize/discuss my knee. Felt pretty much like an idiot standing there while they looked at my knee and all I can think of then was 'thank god my legs are clean and oh my god I forgot to moisturize!!!' So starting next week, I'm in the ACL class with the other PT and seeing my PT every alternate week. How awesome. Seriously.
Today
Today was my paternal grandpa's death anniversary. Woke up really early in the morning to go to the temple.
At night, was a major cryfest cos I finally made up with my mom after two months of not talking.
Tomorrow
It's a wonderful day. Will spend the day at home to revise on hand stuff and start of sensory dysfunction.
Ok goodnight!